Better late than never

I weighed in at the gym yesterday. I've been in meetings for the past 3 days and have had no time to post. I didn't do too bad in spite of myself.

8/20/07 - 329.6
8/28/07 - 327.6
Total Lost: -2 pounds

No more goal setting...

I'm done setting goals for awhile. I'm tired of not getting anywhere close to them. Maybe the trick is to not set them. I don't know what I was thinking setting goals like that considering what I knew my week was going to be like. Here is a summary of the week.

Monday: Got up and made it to the gym at 4am. Yay for me! I went to work and prepared for my sisters arrival. We lined the driveway with Christmas lights to "roll out the red carpet." She has been living in India for the past 2 years and moved home Monday. Only for a short time though, she's moving to Cali. Well, on our way out the door to the airport, I dropped my really heavy camera on the top of my foot. I thought it was broken for a couple of days. It instantly went numb, bruised and swelled. I've come to the conslusion that I bruised the bone and had a little nerve damage.

Wednesday: Car shopping all day with my sister and aunt.

Friday: Had a knock down drag out fight with my bank. Shopping all day with mom and sister. Last outing with my best friend before she moved away.

Saturday: Moved my best friend and her family out of my house. Attempted to start putting the house back together.

Sunday: Putting the house back together for next weekend. Working to put stuff together for next week and packing my bags.

It's been a pretty emotional week and weekend. I'm glad its just about over. I need to find my motivation again. Somewhere along the way I lost it and need to get it back. No goal setting this week. I am going to try though. We are have a staff retreat this week and the hotel we are staying in is across the street from my gym. So maybe i won't have to get up so early and it will make it an easier adjustment.

I didn't join WW online this week. It's too much money. Well not really just too much for all the stuff I need to pay for in the next couple of months.

I still haven't handed the letter off either, due to circumstances. I will hand it off later this week. So keep praying.

Have i left anything out? Just keep praying that I find my motivation. I'll be in meeting all day Mon., Tues., and Wednesday. So you might hear from me as I watch the snack foods in the meeting call my name in either pure boredom or annoyance.

I DID it. It's time to make up for LOST time!!!

I actually made it to the gym this morning and I am already feeling so much better. Are you proud of me? I am. I'm feeling a little tired though. I was just feeling like I was going to be able to do it by the end of the week and then the weekend hit. My best friend and her family lived with me for a few months and they are in the process of moving out so I've been trying to move back into the master bedroom. That was my project for the weekend and although my house is nowhere near being put together the bulk of it is done. YAY! Sometimes I feel like a professional mover. I worked in the evenings also. So it was early mornings and late nights all weekend. So I am back to being exhausted but its a different kind of exhausted. One that I feel like I can handle.

My weight is on the rise again. I thought I was doing better but I guess not. I was watching what I was eating but wasn't counting and journaling. I am up close to 10 pounds since I fell off about 2 months ago but I am back in business. I expect to make up for lost time this week and be back where I left off by this time next week. It's amazing what 2 months of stress and depression can do to you!

As for the confrontation that was going to happen, it never happend. But it will. I HATE confrontation but I feel I have to do it. I wrote a letter and I will hand it to this person as soon as they are around. I missed my window this weekend. Too much going on. Just keep praying. I don't know how its going to be taken but i am hoping for a really good outcome. Part of me wonders if I should still go through with it.

I'm thinking about signing back up for Weight Watchers. I really like some of their online tools. So I might sign up for that. It's so much cheaper. I think. I will be looking into that today.

The Goals:
1. Journal all food and exercise
2. Stand up for myself
3. Make it to the gym daily
4. Lose 9.8 pounds (this takes me back to where I was before life was turned upside down)

I have been making these goals for the past few months but this is the week that I will actually hit them!!

New recipes

I am looking for some new reciepes so if you have any to share please do. Email them to me. My address is shannon.divers@gmail.com.

Working on me

I am still here. I have had a rough couple of weeks. I'm not really sure why but I have. I have been soooo exhausted and worn out. I haven't been able to pull myself out of bed to make it to the gym. Or anywhere else for that matter. I am slowly getting better and am hoping to be ready to go Monday morning. I think some of it is a mild depression. But who knows.

I have to do something this weekend that will be really hard. I need to confront someone in my life over my weight. I kept ignoring it thinking it would get better but it hasn't and it needs to come to an end. It's effecting me and my weight loss efforts. So if you think about me pray for me and this other person. I am afraid of the other person not taking what I have to say very well. I could really use your prayers.

Well, I'll see you on Monday.

Am I proud of myself?

Not really but I'm not beating myself up either. I went to weigh-in. That sucked. I weighed when I got to the gym and it was terrible. I had an oh shit moment. I went and stretched and laid by the sun and got in the hot tub and weighed agian on the way out. It was much better but still not great. It has been downgraded to holy cow. So here are the results...

7/2/07 - 319.6
8/6/07 - 325.8
Toal Gain: +6.2 pounds

Oh, I forgot to mention earlier that I had to cancel my Weight Watchers membership. Money has been tight and I could't justify spending $39 a month to get weighed. I love the accountablity but I just can't do it right now. So I will be using the scale at the gym from now on. It works, I'm just praying that I don't get on it 14x a week. That's why I don't own a scale at home. It makes me crazy. I am still doing Weight Watchers thing. Just not paying for it.

I'm Back!!

Hi. I've missed blogging. Thanks for leaving me a comment Julie. I was planning on blogging today but it was nice to know that I was missed. Please continue to hold me accountable. I need it sometimes. Well, due to circumstances, I have NOT been dieting and excersizing. Life happened and was either too busy or too tired to care. You do the best you can or not and then get back on and try again once the dust settles. My dust is settling and its time to start back up. I have to be honest i am a little terrified of weighing in but I need to be accountable for my lack of trying.

I'm leaving work early today and going to the gym to relax. I am going to stretch (I am very stiff) and realx in the SUN by the pool, then hit the hot tub and suana. After the gym I need to get groceries, otherwise this will NOT work this week. I am hoping for a huge week but I am tired and exhausted and will need your prayers to make it through. I have to get used to the early morning routine again. Yuck. I' am not looking forward to that.

This Weeks Goals:
1. Focus
2. Make it to the gym everyday this week
3. Journal everyday
4. Stand up for myself
5. Lose 10 pounds